life sucks.

life sucks.

thats what alot people had been telling me from last year. Cant blame i also keep saying too but it's getting alot more common nowadays. (I sense the 'j2 is hell' sign) Ok fine i admit i been bitching alot about my life also, about why is this so and why is that so. Argh! But to look at it more optmistically one i would say, Yea! only 9-10 months then A level ends, see so optimistic! Ok thats indeed very lol.

Currently doing math (or copying. cause my one hell of a er hem tutor want me is such a b****, haiz one more year hang on my friend) and as most of you all know math is like my enemy where i simply cant stand numbers less to say stupid probability with those 'P's flying around. Its like a word like 'and' or 'or' can change the whole method of doing. Claps for the person who must use math in such detail. (god damn it, the only time i ever really use math in real life is minus plus divide multiply - end of story. no matrixes or what differentiation) No offence to math loving people by the way. its just i really super do not like math.

I am also very hyped about this sunday cause i get to finally play Mahjong! plus me and my friend signing up for Japanese course with a prospect of taking it up to the highest qualified level test where i can use it to apply for Tokyo Uni. (or japan uni) yes i want to study there somehow, i think japan is better then singapore =/ No offence here again lol. Plus on a more pragmatic side, i get to read Raw Manga, Raw Anime and play Japanese games thus no need to listen to horrible englsih dubs. See the Benefits outweigh the cost (Cost Benefit Analysis eh lol)

Ok gtg finish up my math now. Pray i would be alive after doing it. The doctor says that Numbers is harmful to one's health ok.

Ok jk.

monday blues?

its monday again which means 4 more (hellish) days to weekend and 11 plus days to CNY hols. Cant really wait for cny hols, finally get to rest and stop this forever ongoing tempo of school. Today skipped half of my lessons cause of cca open house and i just really slacked. Did nothing except sit there and say "oh you can write here" to people who are signing up for trials. Quite suprised at the amount of people who signed up and there was 3 koreans too (apparently my friends are intrigued and 'happy' over their interest) so maybe there is hope for the cca now. But then i was telling my friend its confirm 1/4 to 1/2 will not turn up which den is reduced to 2x plus people after selection then half of the club will leave as seen from the current state now. maybe the frequent cancellations have to do with it. Well anyway glad i could skip lessons rather then attending GP lecture but abit sad that missed history tutorial since i like history (International some more).

Home work is piling up again. So many things yet so little time. Time, i need it now.

PS: Still listening to classical and melody music. No mood for vocal music somehow. Whats wrong with me O.0

when can i ever fly?

when will i ever be free of all these and travel to wherever i want? will it ever come in the first place?

Ah.

y is life and time so. so fragile?

I been thinking, why is life and time so fragile and so fast? One may think 10 years is alot but who can know what is going to happen tommorow? Will the world really end at 2012? Why do people keep speculate about how is humanity going to be wipe off from Gaia? Time is like gold. But gold cannot buy time. If only, if only time is able to be paused for eternity wouldnt all these questions be solved? Such fragility. Those innocence then, i miss it. Those days where one think your life is gonna be forever unaltered. if only then i knew. if only.

So fragile yet so precious. Wouldnt one agree so?

hopefully.

yet another day gone by.

went to check those japanese schools today with friends. its funny that the school that look the most dubious to me in fact appeal more to me then the other two schools that looked more professional lol. sadly the test to get a cert is on 1st week of december which apparently my friend told me A levels end 3rd of Dec and with history some more and i went woooo people will be celebrating while i am doing history.... unlucky ttm sia. But nevermind, finally get to learn the language i wanted to learn and hopefully can perserve enough to achieve the highest level. Haiz should really have started like 2 years ago man, too bad i was wasting time on games like dota then. computer stinks man.

Oh and tried to find GP tys at JP just now and there isnt any man, so how am i going to hand in or bring my tys that doesnt even exist now when monday arrives? Looks like i have another thing to worry now. Currently bored or feeling lost, no mood dota no mood wow no mood game and anything i wanted to surf also surfed like at least 5 times, whats with me man i really do not know wth is with me currently. Watched "Universal Soldier" just now and i think it sucks totally. For people that like action scene go ahead and watch but for me i really do not like those gore plus shallow plot, its such a watse of my money. I hate this movie season, no tearjerkers nor touching movies to watch.

So. a new weekend is coming. will it be as tiring as the one before? i certainly think so. haiz. i really hate this kind of life. ttm.

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